haunting dreams of a lonely nailbunny.

battling jedi mind tricks.
side stepping transformers.
finding random acts of kindness a turn on.
and in a bar, in a dream, on a island with cattle,
you kissed me.
you forgave me.
you offered to fold my laundry.

and then you went missing again.
and I couldn't move.
I tried to find you.
desperately,
each second fleeting from me.
but you refused to be found.
you just hid there inside that mind of yours.
where the walls shape shift,
and that hollow howl inside makes you cry.

if only you would have let me find you.
each second restored.
each kiss leaving me wanting more.
i suppose now we're just characters in some awful indie film.
and you are watching a bag flapping in the wind.

(isn't it indeed beautiful.
this feeling of regret.
this feeling of letting go.)