Thursday, January 19, 2006

fucking people over

there are times that I wish
that others would understand-
that not everyone needs a guardian.
that not everyone needs someone to check on them at night......

it seems these days I'm drifting
in
and
out.

trying to keep a grasp on this reality.
this time.
this....thing that I am.
body.
mind.
soul.
maybe soul....

how many times do I find myself
here
teeth biting lips
blood beneath tongue
feeling that thing
beneath me

if you ever wonder if I care
I need you to know that I do.
but there is this thing
this body of water that keeps me drowning
keeps me quiet
full of bullshit
full of love
full of hurt

that body of water that pumps through this heart.
it loves you....

that is all.

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